Wow! I can't believe it's already been almost a month since my day of surgery! I really can't believe half of September is already gone!! Anyways, to "the toe experience"!...
Haven't been writing every day because there hasn't been much to tell. In other words, not too much has happened that's out of the ordinary. Every now & then I still feel the discomfort of the hardware in my foot. Going from upstairs to down & vise versa has gotten easier & now I do it with both the crutches. As opposed to holding on to the railing with one hand & a crutch in the other. I only took the heavy pain killer one night a few days ago because my foot was really hurting. There's a strip of medical tape on my heal that runs across the scar that is KILLING me!! I feel it pulling my skin & irritating the skin as most of the time my weight rests on the heal due to how I sit. I'm really hoping my next Dr's visit, which is at the end of the month, they can take it off or at the very lease trim it. At this point it's a desperate feeling I need of relief!! That leg/foot has also started to get a little itchy.
In all honesty, I've been struggling more mentally & emotionally & I'm not too ashamed to admit yesterday I had a mild break down :) I'm getting sick of sitting/laying around. I feel so unproductive! & being stuck & immobile is so frustrating for me. I'm so used to being independent & always doing something. There's only so much tv one can watch & mess with the internet. So this time I have forces me to think..think & do more thinking. It kind of starts messing with your mind a little bit. It's easy to loose sight of the big picture & just wait this thing out. One side of my brain tells me, "You're healing! Dummy." While the other side is screaming, "I need to find a job..I want to work again!".
Sigh.
My husband was on a business trip most of last week so I spent the whole week in the house. So, yea, by Friday I was a bit of a wack job! Like a hero though he took me out on a date Saturday, I even put a little make-up on, & saved the day..or my brain! He took me to Ultra Star Cinemas in Scottsdale which we had never been & really liked it! On the way out of the theater, once the movie was done, it was still dark & as I opened he door to come out I happened to kind of glance behind me & noticed a man standing behind me..to close behind me & scared me. I almost took him out with the right crutch. LOLOLOL!!! Right before I was about to swing it at him, I looked again, & all this happened in seconds mind you, I looked at him again & just kept waddling forward while my husband walked in front of me to help hold the door open. I came out of there laughing so hard & my husband had no idea why I was laughing..LOL!!..& then because I was laughing so hard I stepped on his flop with my crutch & caused us to trip. Only me would this happen to. In all seriousness though, it did help to get out this weekend AND have my mom come over with some yummy food. I even made dessert!..but had ended up on bent knees on a chair because my good leg got so tired.
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