11/13 12 weeks - Anxious

11/13/13 <<week 12>>

I will be back tracking since I haven't written for a few weeks. Wed., 11/13 is the day I was scheduled to have my cast taken off...FINALLY!! Before I go into that, I hadn't realized how long it's been since I hadn't posted anything. I have to say, the cast was...well, I can't straight say it was "the bane of my existence" because the "toe" was the bane of my existence. So I will just say it was making me crazy in every way possible...for me. I don't know about anyone else but for me, I was at my wits end.

Anyway, I had to go in 2 weeks a head of schedule in October because water got in my cast. My husband joked the I had done it on purpose but I didn't! I had gotten water in it before & that was the LAST thing I wanted because I never did anything about it the first time & when I went in on my regular scheduled appointment the inner sock was stuck to my heel. I was already freaking out about the cast & this just made it WORSE! When they replaced the cast they did so with my heel still damp, the skin wrinkly & I tell you, it was as if they were stuffing me back in the coffin after having dug me out in the first place. So this time I scheduled to go in the very next day which in turn bumped everything up to 2 weeks. It may have seemed like I planned it because it worked out perfect for our road trip. (Yes, we're taking a road trip..yay!!) Before this situation, I'd be wearing the stupid thing all through the trip but with the new schedule it came off a week before the trip. Again, I swear I did not plan that. Simply & mostly because my brain was not in the state of mind to have the wits to plan that out. Believe me. It was a good thing  I did go in the next day though because the water had reached all the way down to my heel again.

Needless to say, those last 3 weeks of the last cast were the longest & hardest EVER. Days before Wed., 11/13 I was a mess & the night before...sigh. Well, there are no words. To make matter worse, my husband's grandmother passed away so he had to fly home that Wednesday morning & I had to pull my son from school so he could take me to the appointment. You wanna' talk about stress & emotional levels being up there! I was on over drive. Now, I feel I have to confess something...as a result from all my insanity with the cast, I started smoking again. :/  I tried so hard not to but it was stronger than me. What's horrible is that I know, I KNOW, that smoking slows down the healing process.I suppose it was counter productive to take my Calcium & other vitamins AND smoke. Ill add the last pictures I took at the Doctor's office & I have to say when the x-rays went up & I noticed the bones were not 100% healed I panicked because I was so afraid he'd come back & say, "Well, we have to put on another cast".
Ill write another post about that day..so this one doesn't turn into a book. Meanwhile, I thought I'd add some pics of my toes before the last cast came off.